When I first looked into the idea of purpose, what it means, what drives it and what it’s driving me towards, I got really lost. There’s so much out there on the idea of purpose. What it means and who gets to decide what it is, think free-will and “destiny”, and what and who it should include or benefit.

I first started looking at the Japanese method of finding purpose called Ikigai, which translates to “purpose in life” or “reason for being.” Ikigai moves on four basic questions or overlapping energies and what’s found in the midst of these is your purpose. These energies include what you love, what you’re good at, what the world needs and what you can get paid for.

Where I personally got lost is the last two mentioned, what the world needs and what I can get paid for. Personally, I didn’t align with the energy of my purpose being monetizable. I also didn’t align with the idea that my purpose had to benefit or even include others. This is where I was out of alignment with Ikigai.

Then, I was introduced to the concept of “divine purpose” or “God’s will.” This also didn’t sit in alignment with me. Like most people, the idea that my free will was predestined and unavoidable made me feel stuck, stagnant, and scared. The idea that my actions were like quarters feeding a machine felt forced. I aligned most with freedom, autonomy and sovereignty in my actions, my spirit and my future.

Building on this, where I found my purpose, or the name of it, was through chakra alignment. The “purpose” or “meaning of life” came through the balanced embodiment of the Crown chakra (Sahasrara) which governs your connection to your source, God, divinity, and the ether. And through the Solar Plexus (Manipura) which rules your identity, self-recognition, self-respect and self-power.

Through these we find “my” (the solar plexus) and “purpose” (crown).

Now it’s not as simple as activating these and moving on, it’s about balancing them and integrating them through the lens of reality.

So what did that look like for me? What was my purpose?

“Just exist”

It was funny the way this came about for me, someone said this to me in a completely unrelated conversation and I grappled with what they were asking of me for many months.

How do I JUST exist? There must be more you need, how do I start my day? Where do I go to “just exist”? Who do I go around or who do I avoid” ? Should I change what I eat? What should I wear? What is existence in this sense? What are you really asking of me?

And with every question I fell deeper and deeper into the delusion that existence had a set embodiment.

News flash!

It doesn’t.

Now, what they were saying was strictly for them, I had asked “what do you want me to do?” and that was their response. But it impacted me more than they could ever know. I received that, fully.

So for years, I set my intent not only for this person but for myself, to simply exist.

I then found myself in the Bible, seeing some truth in Matthew 6:26-27.

“Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they”

This, to me, really said something simple.

“Why do I doubt myself if I’m divinely backed?”

That to me was the integrated embodiment of the Crown chakra. My trust in the divine, to guide me, provide for me, and correct me when I was on the wrong path.

After this, I went back to Ikigai, the second element with which I was out of alignment: my purpose to the world, or what the world needs. I felt the world was owed something. Like I was indebted to the world. But why did I feel that?

Because we confuse existence with obligation.

From a young age we are often taught that simply being here requires justification. Taught to live off survival-based social contracts, where worth is deemed conditional. Taught that productivity is identity, that we have to be in a constant state of producing, improving, healing, helping, or optimizing. And worst of all, taught that connection is dependent on usefulness. That once we cease to be of service, we lose our connections, indebting us into people-pleasing contracts, and then becoming a cyclical pattern.

Life is not a favor that requires repayment.

Just exist.

But that doesn't mean that whilst I’m existing, I won’t create, heal, help or optimize. It simply means I’ll do it on my own terms. With my own sovereignty. Through embodied the Solar Plexus.

I can absolutely be of service to the world. Inherently its inevitable. This is where I connected the Second Law of Thermodynamics, which states that energy must remain in continuous exchange or be actively applied, or else systems drift toward decay. When I reverse-engineered this through sovereignty, something clicked: if stagnation leads to deterioration, then movement—when it is authentic and self-directed—naturally participates in sustaining life around it. Purpose, then, didn’t require me to aim myself at usefulness. It became inevitable service through self-aligned motion.

So now we have two full, embodied ideas found through beliefs of varying spaces.

What now?

Well, now you just find what you love, what you’re good at.

For me, it simply was, living.

Existing.

Feeling. Healing. Loving.

Dying. Awakening.

Crying. Smiling.

Dancing. Eating. Sleeping. Running.

Simply existing in the wholeness of all I was offered, allowing myself to receive insight from Source, integrate it through my sovereignty and move in alignment with not only myself but the many existences around me.

In harmony, I exist.